I used to know my personality, but now I can’t get my head around it

I have had a discussion with a new friend I made in Montréal, who told me she went to a speed dating event and it was a lot of fun. So she suggested I should go to one and I rapidly replied I couldn't attend such an event, not because I don't like the concept (I did say it was a weird concept, but hey, don't you agree?), but because I'm just unable to do so.

Emotional Wasteland; how to tear down the stronghold defence

I've been living in an emotional wasteland for more than 15 years. It doesn't mean that I don't feel anything, it only means that I've been forbidding myself to let a particular set of negative feelings affect my life. Of course, it didn't go as planned, I did feel a lot of stuffs, but by denying those feeling, I created a situation where I forgot how to recognise them. [...]